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Wednesday, May 7th 2008

10:22 AM

UPDATE

Just want to post a little something real quick before they close my account. I'm sorry folks but my job has been really strict with the internet use, and I don't have one at my home. Not to mention whenever I try to type like right now, the girl that seat behind me runs her mouth non-stop. I can't even concentrate.

Okay....I'm 4 months pregnant now. So far so good. I got to hear the baby's heart beat. The first time I couldn't hear it because I didn't know what to listen for but the next time I went I was prepared. All my family and friends now know that I'm pregnant and all are happy. My parents are really trying to get to know Robert better. They invited him and me on their vacation a couple of weeks ago. It turned out pretty nice. My mom's seems to really like him. I still don't want to really be with him so I figure once our child is about 1 I will dump him and find me someone else. He still lies....I still ain't seen the millions. I just stopped asking about it all together. I mean he lies about dump things. For instance he said to me last weekend, "Baby you gave me the sonogragm pictures didn't you." I said yeah you got them. Then he went on to tell me a story about how his mother saw them and how she was joking that she can tell it's a girl and he saying no it's a boy. I just looked at him and said nothing. I didn't give him the sono pictures. There are still in my possession but I just misplaced them. Which reminds me I'm going to look for them today to further prove my point. Why would he make up such a story like that? He is really crazy, and I'm stuck with him for years to come...but I'm trying.

My friends are really making this whole thing a lot easier on me. I mean they call me all the time or send "how you feeling" emails. I just told my step-sister over the weekend when she came for a visit from New York. She was really excited that she's going to be an Aunt. She claimed I took one for the team since our parents have been dying for a grandchild besides the 4-legged one that they already have.

Well I will try and stay in touch at least once a week. My life have become so boring. Not really much to talk about. I don't want to bore you all with pregnancy stories. Not that anyone really reads my blog, besides Toni, Kris, Tymme, Jonella, Sevi, and Jay. People just tag you to ask to exchange links.

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Friday, March 28th 2008

3:40 PM

WORTHLESS COMMENTS

OK......these people are working my nerves! I don't know who these people are. All I know is when I check my email it says I have like 10 new comments. Of course I get excited and think WOW ten people are reading my blog . Only to find out it's a bunch of nonsense . Some phone advertisement is leaving comments on my blogs from months ago. Is anyone else having this problem? Any suggestions? I thought that was what the word verification was for. Sometimes I have a hard time figuring it out so I'm thinking this is a real person using my blog for their advertisement . How dare them!!!! I mean if your going to put your crap there at least first comment on whatever I wrote about Assholes! Here is a sample of there comments. I got a lot of them... http://hershekisses.bravejournal.com/entry/29438
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Friday, March 21st 2008

1:19 PM

LIFE GOES ON

I still can't believe I'm pregnant by a man I don't want to be with. How dumb could I be? And the worst part is he swears he's in love with me. If I'm being totally honest I've been avoiding him for the past 7 days. I've been the one doing all the lying this time. Telling him I have the flu and staying at my parents so he won't try to come down and take care of me. Yesterday I texted him back and told him I lost my voice while I'm in my bedroom screaming during March Madness, and playing along to Don't Forget The Lyrics.
I kinda can't wait to see how the next two years of my life is going to turn out. I have absolutely no clue what-so-ever. Maybe I'll grow to love him but I don't think so. I can't have a decent conversation with him. All he talks about is how much he misses me, how much he loves me. I want to talk about something else. Make me laugh for crying out loud! I find myself talking to Renzo more on the phone. We are really good friends and we always had good conversations. I just miss good conversation. Yesterday while walking Beavis this cute guy got out of his car to talk to me. I swear we talked for about 30 minutes and I enjoyed it. He ended up giving me his number and saying our first date would be going out bowling. I just laughed and thought to myself "If you only knew". I don't know if I'm going to call him or not. He was funny and kinda cute, very down to earth. I might call him but I'm sure it will only be one conversation that goes a little like this, "It was really nice meeting you the other day, by the way I'm two months pregnant and the father is still around. So we can't go bowling but how's dinner? I sure could go for some pickles and ice cream." Yeah I can just see him begging for a second date. I'm not looking for anything romantic but it would be nice just to have a new platonic friend. 
I have more important things to worry about besides men. To my surprise I'm not depressed by my situation. I think I'm taking all this very well and for the most part I'm still pretty happy with my life. Well Tuesday I went threw one of my spells. I don't know what happened but I was really down on Monday...don't know the cause. Then on Tuesday I couldn't get out of bed, called off work and stayed in my bed without so much as washing my ass. I ended up calling Toni to ask if she can come over after work. I knew if I stayed home alone I would remain in my bed for the rest of the day and maybe the next feeling sorry for myself. Of course she agreed and it worked. I got up, took a shower, went to the store, cleaned up a little and cooked dinner. By the time she got there I was a much better person then I was that morning and was very grateful to her.( Kris and Neka I know you guys would have came if I called but she lives the closest.) Again thank you Toni for being there when I really needed a friend....Luv Ya!  We chilled, ate, and watched Goodfellas. After she left Beavis and I went to bed and I was in better spirits when I woke up the next morning. I just needed a mental health day .
 
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Thursday, March 13th 2008

10:08 AM

COMING TO TERMS/ DREAMS

Hello good people. Well I'm finally accepting this pregnancy and kinda looking forward too it at times. I hate the symptoms though. The nausea  and the constipation. Other then that I'm fine. I don't know if a symptom is wanting to be up under my mother all the time. My God it seems like I'm always at her house under her all the time. What's up with that? My friends are being really nice also. Always asking how I feel. When they ask it seems as if they really care. I guess I should enjoy it now because I'm constantly being told it won't be about me anymore. I have not really been depressed and I was worried about that before. I thought being pregnant in all and not being able to take my anti-depressant I was gonna go crazy. I'm very calm for the most part. Don't want to give the baby and negative vibes.
 
Last night I had this weird dream. Toni you were in it. My OB/GYN just happened to be a dentist also. When I went for my sonogram she put that light thing in my mouth and the baby showed up on this big screen TV. It was a girl and she had Angel wings. She was just flying around in my stomach....oh and she was white with curly hair. Toni was in the next room getting her teeth pulled. She came over to where I was at because there was no doors there. She was saying how pretty the baby was even though I was only 9 weeks. Her and I left the doctors office together to go back to work and when I looked at her she was struggling holding this big 7 seven year old. Come to find out the big 7 year old was my child. I gave birth and it aged 7 years all during my hour lunch break. I told her I didn't want the child and she could have it. She kept it and I was happy. The dream kinda scared me. Why was my child a Angel???? Why did it grow so fast???? Why did I give it away???? I'm thinking miscarriage, deformity and abandonment!!!! The dream really freaked me out this morning.Do you think it meant anything?
 
 
 
***Update***
 
I just left from having my sonogram done and the baby didn't have wings. They said everything looks normal so far and my due date is October 15th.  
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Thursday, March 6th 2008

1:10 PM

BILL COLLECTORS

I have a strong urge to fight . I think it came from this man yesterday. I fell behind on my car note right. I called the people to set up payment. This little asshole picks up the phone and ask how much can I pay today. I told him I didn't have any money today but want to set up payment for the 21st of this month. Asshole was all like "Oh no Mrs.Jones that's not going to work , you have to pay something today". I'm not going to go word from word of what was said but Asshole just got a kick out of getting smart with me. I mean I know I'm behind but it's not like they don't get a payment from me every month. Sometimes it hasn't been the whole payment but I do what I can. Asshole was all like, "how about you borrow from a friend, how about you get one of those payday loans, how about you borrow from your 401K, how about......" I was so pissed but tried to keep my composure. It was kinda bad to the point where I was at work yelling at him . I couldn't take it any more and just hung up. I mean here I was calling to set something up. He didn't bother to ask me how much I was going to pay on the 21st. Talking about they needed something that day. I mean I want to pay them just as much as they want to get paid. So when I got home last night I wanted to fight someone. I have not had a physical fight in years. The only people I ever fought after elementary school was family. I just want to beat the shit out of someone. If anyone out there has a problem with someone I will fight them for you. You just have to live no more then a state away from DC.
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Wednesday, March 5th 2008

11:41 AM

BORED

I don't have anything to say but just thought it was time for me to blog again. I'm bored....bored....bored!!!!!!!!!!! Out of my fuckin mind! Bored with my job, my life, and my man. Some days I like Robert, some days I don't. I just never dated anyone so clingy before and I'm a person who really LOVES my space.
Friday night Renzo came over and chilled with me. We ate crabs and had frozen virgin margaritas, and watched a movie. He knows I'm pregnant. I told him about a week ago. He was shocked . He didn't believe me. Said he couldn't picture me pregnant. Not sure I know what that means. But he went on to tell me he was happy for me. Said that if dude didn't act right he would step in. Went on to also say that he's there for me if I need him, if I wanted him to go to an appointment or anything. Thought that was sweet but I don't see it happening. Robert is too much involved. He is already picking out names. But Friday was cool. Renzo and are really just friends. He didn't try anything. He was the first male I had in my apartment since being with Robert.
Saturday I went to get another sono which didn't happen. The place I went to said they don't take my insurance. I was pissed because this was my third visit and that means I had some big bills coming in. I swung past my moms house for few. Nothing much really happened. Robert came down later that day. We played games in the house and went for a long walk with Beavis. It was nice. I was worried because I knew he would want to have sex but I have not been having the urges . I was just going to force myself and fake it. But before I went to bed Saturday night he went down on me and I knew I was not going to have to fake anything . It was so good. The sex was so good. I actually cum every time we have sex and that's unusual for me. I always get mine first and then be wishing he was a 10 minute brother  cause that's all it takes for me with him. We did it a few more times before he left on Sunday. I was really happy to see him leave. Like I said I like having my place to myself.
My friends didn't play a part in my weekend this time. Two went out to a club and neither invited me, and one had a cookout on Sunday, again I wasn't invited. I pretty much told two of them that they will be replaced so I think from here on out they will start asking me stuff even if they already know my answer will be no. I still like to be invited . With that being said I'm going to try and go out more. When they do invite me I'm gonna go. I will take my own car just in case I get tired too fast I can drive myself home.  
Well that's it. Every time I say I don't have much to talk about it always turn into a long entry...lol.   
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Monday, February 25th 2008

11:14 AM

GIRLS NIGHT INN

My weekend was nice. Friday after work Beavis and I went to my parents house. I watched TV and went to sleep in the guest room. Woke up Saturday morning and knew I had to go shopping because my friends were coming over that night. Jada said she would come over early that day and help me move furniture around. I wanted to get a move on because I didn't want to hold her up, I knew she would have a millions things to do on a Saturday morning.
 
After leaving the shoppers and I went home and put the food away and called Jada. Her and her daughter came over and helped. Man she turned that storage place into a real apartment. I had no doubt she would pull it off. Her daughter kept making me smile because she's always laughing like she's holding onto a private joke.
 
After they left I knew I had tons to do. I wanted everything to be perfect but I was already tired and needed to lay down. I hardly did anything but I was exhausted! Time was going so fast. I had to remind myself that these were just my friends that I have know for years. So what if something is out of order or the food isn't ready by the time they got here. And everytime one arrived they offered to help. For the most part I put them to work.
Jada arrived first, then, Kandi, India, and then came Kris, and Neka. I was happy to see everybody. Each one of them holds a very big piece of my heart. We all ate, talked, and relaxed. I don't know why it seemed like I was having a out of body experience. I was there, but I don't remember the conversation at the beginning. I was really tired. We played Scene It and Shout About. After that we all just kinda hung out. I always wonder what's going on in people's head. I wonder...why Kandi leave so early....why Jada go all the way downstairs to smoke.....who Neka texting the whole night....is Kris OK telling her personal business like this or should I shut her up.... I just want to hold India real tight and never let her go. I just worry so much sometimes.
 
After Kris, Neka, and India who were the last to leave, they helped me clean and I crashed. BTW is was hard watching my friends drink nice cold wine, coolers, and liquor. It was harder then I thought it would be. Maybe I am a alcoholic.  I was only half-joking when I asked Neka to carry this baby for me, that's how bad I wanted to drink. I wish it was that easy. Jada did bring her blender over and I had virgin frozen daiquiri. Neka brought me my own blender and I've been making me a frozen drink every day since then.
 
Well I'm glad everyone came out to spend time with me and I really enjoyed myself.
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Friday, February 22nd 2008

3:54 PM

T.G.I.F.

Thank God It's Friday!!!!! I did not want to come to work at all this week. The weather sucked and I just wasn't in the mood. I'm really looking forward to the weekend because my friends are coming over to chill with me. I hope the weather doesn't keep too many of them away. I don't really have anything planned or nothing. Just wanted to chill,eat, and play a few games.
OMG it feels like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I didn't have car insurance. My insurance canceled my policy because I was a week and a half late paying the bastards! How are they gonna just drop me?? I should have been the one to drop their lousy asses! Well now I have a new insurance company that is actually cheaper.
I want to buy Robert a gift this weekend. Maybe something small like some slippers or PJ's. He's been really good to me and I don't want him to think I take him for granted. He cooks, cleans, runs my bath, walks my dog, buys my dog food, gives me money for food and gas. He really stepped his game up. I was also pleased with my gift from him on Valentines Day even though I didn't get it until the 16th . I didn't so much as get him a card. Everyone likes to feel special. Don't get it wrong because I do a lot for him also but I just want to buy him a present.
Yesterday I asked Jada to request my ultrasound from the radiology place that I went to. Since we work at a medical center she never has a problem getting them to fax to her. Well I wish I didn't read it because it had all these big words which I had no idea what they meant. It did confirm that at the time I was 5 weeks pregnant. It's just some other things that concerned me. Got me wondering about miscarriage and child retardation. I'm going to try to not think about it and just wait for my doctors appointment on the 26th. If I feel she's not telling me everything I'm going to pull out my copy and make her go threw each sentence with me.
Well everyone have a nice weekend and be careful. We got a lot of ice here and me and Beavis almost broke our necks this morning.
Chow!  (inside joke to Toni)
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Tuesday, February 19th 2008

12:09 PM

Hope everyone had a nice weekend. Mine was okay. Robert came down and hung out. Sad to say I don't like being around him no more then 3 days at a time. It makes things a little hard being that we are about to have a child together. He's still just a little to clingy but he's working on it. He's currently looking for a job here in D.C., he lives in Baltimore. I really have mixed feelings about all this. I found out Saturday that I'm about 5 weeks pregnant. I told my mom yesterday and she was really shocked. She said she knew I wanted to tell or ask her something because I was hanging around too long. Of course she thought I was going to ask her for money. It was funny because I got to her house at 3:30 and followed her all over the house, from the basement, kitchen, her bedroom. I kept waiting for an opening. And then finally as I was packing up the dog to go around 10pm I just blurted out "by the way I'm pregnant". Glad I got that out the way. She lectured me a little bit, not the bad lecture but the be careful what you eat, no heavy lifting. She reminded me that I'm no longer a Spring Chicken so this is a good thing. I'm happy she was okay with everything. I may be 31 but I still look for my mothers approval.
I still don't know how I feel. I'm not excited, and I'm not sad. I'm not even scared anymore. It's like whatever. Robert is very excited. It's all he talks about. I try not to complain he could have turned out to be one of those men to get me pregnant and then want nothing to do with me. He swears we are going to be ok. He has money saved, he let me see his bank statements and he's doing okay. Also lets not forget the "million". I still don't know what to say about that one. I gave him plenty of times to fess up and admit it was a joke, prank, or a lie. He claims he won a big amount of money and will be getting it in a matter of weeks. He didn't win it in the lottery I just wrote that in here because it keeps things a little more anonymous. Time will tell. My friend Candy gave me good advice. Pretend that the money doesn't exist. Just play things by ear and as long as we both are two hard-working individuals we will be fine. I'm not going to tell anyone else until I'm 3 months. I think that's when there's a little less chance for miscarriage.
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Thursday, February 14th 2008

10:57 AM

HAPPY V-DAY

Just thought I would check in and say hi! As for me.....I've just been doing a whole lot of thinking. I have no answers about anything, just a lot of thinking.

 

 

 

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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