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Just want to post a little something real quick before they close my account. I'm sorry folks but my job has been really strict with the internet use, and I don't have one at my home. Not to mention whenever I try to type like right now, the girl that seat behind me runs her mouth non-stop. I can't even concentrate.
Okay....I'm 4 months pregnant now. So far so good. I got to hear the baby's heart beat. The first time I couldn't hear it because I didn't know what to listen for but the next time I went I was prepared. All my family and friends now know that I'm pregnant and all are happy. My parents are really trying to get to know Robert better. They invited him and me on their vacation a couple of weeks ago. It turned out pretty nice. My mom's seems to really like him. I still don't want to really be with him so I figure once our child is about 1 I will dump him and find me someone else. He still lies....I still ain't seen the millions. I just stopped asking about it all together. I mean he lies about dump things. For instance he said to me last weekend, "Baby you gave me the sonogragm pictures didn't you." I said yeah you got them. Then he went on to tell me a story about how his mother saw them and how she was joking that she can tell it's a girl and he saying no it's a boy. I just looked at him and said nothing. I didn't give him the sono pictures. There are still in my possession but I just misplaced them. Which reminds me I'm going to look for them today to further prove my point. Why would he make up such a story like that? He is really crazy, and I'm stuck with him for years to come...but I'm trying.
My friends are really making this whole thing a lot easier on me. I mean they call me all the time or send "how you feeling" emails. I just told my step-sister over the weekend when she came for a visit from New York. She was really excited that she's going to be an Aunt. She claimed I took one for the team since our parents have been dying for a grandchild besides the 4-legged one that they already have.
Well I will try and stay in touch at least once a week. My life have become so boring. Not really much to talk about. I don't want to bore you all with pregnancy stories. Not that anyone really reads my blog, besides Toni, Kris, Tymme, Jonella, Sevi, and Jay. People just tag you to ask to exchange links.
. Only to find out it's a bunch of nonsense 
. Some phone advertisement is leaving comments on my blogs from months ago. Is anyone else having this problem? Any suggestions? I thought that was what the word verification was for. Sometimes I have a hard time figuring it out so I'm thinking this is a real person using my blog for their advertisement 
. How dare them!!!! I mean if your going to put your crap there at least first comment on whatever I wrote about Assholes! Here is a sample of there comments. I got a lot of them... http://hershekisses.bravejournal.com/entry/29438
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and the constipation. Other then that I'm fine. I don't know if a symptom is wanting to be up under my mother all the time. My God it seems like I'm always at her house under her all the time. What's up with that? My friends are being really nice also. Always asking how I feel. When they ask it seems as if they really care. I guess I should enjoy it now because I'm constantly being told it won't be about me anymore. I have not really been depressed and I was worried about that before. I thought being pregnant in all and not being able to take my anti-depressant I was gonna go crazy. I'm very calm for the most part. Don't want to give the baby and negative vibes.
. I think it came from this man yesterday. I fell behind on my car note right. I called the people to set up payment. This little asshole picks up the phone and ask how much can I pay today. I told him I didn't have any money today but want to set up payment for the 21st of this month. Asshole was all like "Oh no Mrs.Jones that's not going to work , you have to pay something today". I'm not going to go word from word of what was said but Asshole just got a kick out of getting smart with me. I mean I know I'm behind but it's not like they don't get a payment from me every month. Sometimes it hasn't been the whole payment but I do what I can. Asshole was all like, "how about you borrow from a friend, how about you get one of those payday loans, how about you borrow from your 401K, how about......" I was so pissed but tried to keep my composure. It was kinda bad to the point where I was at work yelling at him 
. I couldn't take it any more and just hung up. I mean here I was calling to set something up. He didn't bother to ask me how much I was going to pay on the 21st. Talking about they needed something that day. I mean I want to pay them just as much as they want to get paid. So when I got home last night I wanted to fight someone. I have not had a physical fight in years. The only people I ever fought after elementary school was family. I just want to beat the shit out of someone. If anyone out there has a problem with someone I will fight them for you. You just have to live no more then a state away from DC.
. He didn't believe me. Said he couldn't picture me pregnant. Not sure I know what that means. But he went on to tell me he was happy for me. Said that if dude didn't act right he would step in. Went on to also say that he's there for me if I need him, if I wanted him to go to an appointment or anything. Thought that was sweet but I don't see it happening. Robert is too much involved. He is already picking out names. But Friday was cool. Renzo and are really just friends. He didn't try anything. He was the first male I had in my apartment since being with Robert. 
. I was just going to force myself and fake it. But before I went to bed Saturday night he went down on me and I knew I was not going to have to fake anything 
. It was so good. The sex was so good. I actually cum every time we have sex and that's unusual for me. I always get mine first and then be wishing he was a 10 minute brother 
cause that's all it takes for me with him. We did it a few more times before he left on Sunday. I was really happy to see him leave. Like I said I like having my place to myself. 
. With that being said I'm going to try and go out more. When they do invite me I'm gonna go. I will take my own car just in case I get tired too fast I can drive myself home.
. I didn't so much as get him a card. Everyone likes to feel special. Don't get it wrong because I do a lot for him also but I just want to buy him a present. 
Just thought I would check in and say hi! As for me.....I've just been doing a whole lot of thinking. I have no answers about anything, just a lot of thinking.
Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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