My life is going okay right now. One thing in my life I'm kind of sad about. Feels like I lost my best friend. Won't talk about it and I won't blog about it so I will just deal with it the best way I know how.

Everything else is pretty much still the same. Again there is nothing really much to talk about. My life is so freakin boring! My pregnancy is going well. I'm now 5 months. Yesterday I had a sonogram and found out it's a boy. Something I knew all along. My mom was there with me and Jada snuck out of the job to also come and offer her support. Robert wanted to be there but since I was going on my lunch break I told him not to bother coming all the way from Baltimore to DC. I will be sure to include him on the next one, even if I have to take off work to help him find his way downtown. He's so happy that I'm having a boy. I must have some feelings for him because I'm happy that he's happy. I'm still not at the point where I'm really excited but I think I may be getting there. Feeling and seeing the baby move around so much helps. I'm just really scared that something bad is gonna happen. I'm terrified. I don't know why. Or when the child gets here and we don't like each other. I just worry about so much so I try not to think about it being there. I do plan on getting my place ready for the baby this weekend. I have so much stuff to throw away and move around. Robert is coming down either Friday or Saturday. I'll be sure to put him to work.

I saw my little brother again a couple of weeks ago. It was really nice. I love visiting him in NJ and seeing him do so well. I miss him but it's better he stays up there. When he's here all he does is cause people pain and heartache.

I know I say this all the time but I'm really gonna start blogging more often. Maybe at least once every other week for now. Take care.