My weekend was pretty nice. Things didn't go as I have planned but they still turned out okay. Robert just spent the last few days with me. It was such a big help to have him over. After the 3rd day he started getting on my nerves as usual and I was ready for him to go home.

Renzo....Just after I wrote that last entry about him he dissapointed me. I got on the wrong train and had to call him to pick me up. When he got me from the metro it was some picture of a girl on his visor. I took it down to look at it. She was kinda cute. I asked who she was and he told me some chick he's seeing, he also mentioned he was at her place when I called (why he had to mention that?). I asked him how he got to me so fast then. He said she lived in his building. I was so jealous. I wanted to throw that picture out the window. He was my little fantasy man. Now...he's tarnished. I don't even want to call him anymore because I would hate for him to tell me, "I'm busy right now, let me call you later" and me hear her in the back-ground. Oh the pain.   

I'm in a much better place then I was the last time I wrote here. Some things I had to get use to and learn how to deal with. I've done that now and I'm cool with everything. I no longer feel....left out...no longer wanted...or needed. Some things just takes getting used too. I'm not always up for change. Like I said I'm happy now. I have a great family and great friends. I know I have said that a lot but some times you have to remind yourself of your many blessings.

What I need more then anything is a freakin vacation! OMG how I would love to get away if only for a weekend. Somewhere that has a pool and a lot of food. Somewhere that I can just be lazy!

I do believe a change in my circle of friends is about to take place. Some good and some bad. I'm preparing myself for it now. You know how you can tell something bad is about to happen. Well that's the feeling that I'm getting. It's not an eerie feeling because it's not going to affect me personally. I don't think it's going to even bother me that much. I'm not sure what friends this is about to happen to but a shift is coming. Don't I sound like a crazy person....LOL. Too much reading on Edgar Cayce got me tapping into my sixth sense. Oh well. gotta go.