Hi people! What's going on with me? Nothing new. Just still in the process of doing self reflection. We were just talking at work about money management and I need to do better. I have to really become more responsible. I need to start paying my bills on time. I've been paying on the same two credit cards for almost 3 years now and I have not used them in 2 years.

Surprisingly I'm liking Robert a little more each week. That's a good thing being I'm stuck with him in my life for the next 19-21 years. He's getting much better and is really trying to make my life a little easier. I stopped being so hard on him also. If we'er gonna work I have to stop trying to change him into someone he is not. I like having him around now. When he's off work and stays a few days with me he's very attentive. He rubs my stomach, massages my feet when I get home from work, cleans my apartment, walks and feed my dog, cook my meals, and will even run my bath water. I still don't love him but I'm liking him a lot better.

Hormones have kinda been all over the place I guess. Most days I'm in a good mood others I'm down for no reason. Sometimes I even resent my friends. I feel left out. It's not even nothing that they do to make me feel that way. They still call, wanna hang but it's just me. I tell them my hanging out late nights is over but then get in my feelings about them not inviting me to hang all hours of the night. I'm so weird. I'm sure other pregnant people go threw this. My friends may have even went threw this. I was trying to think where was I when Kris was pregnant or Neka, Kandi, or India. I was probably less attentive because I can be so selfish and don't really be realizing it. I want them to continue to have a good time and no I don't really want to go to any parties or anywhere that's going to keep me out past mid-night...who am I kidding, past 10pm is more like it. It just can be a little sad because I miss hanging with them. That's why I'm going to start suggesting things to do that's not at night. Like beaches, movies, or just little get-togethers. I can't sit and whine about stuff. I have to take action. I don't want to become a complete home body.

*Baby update* Some of you may be pleased to know that as of yesterday I started talking to the baby. I felt like a complete idiot and Beavis looked at me like I lost my damn mind but I'm doing it anyway. I look forward to feeling him move everyday so I know everything is okay. He's getting a little pattern. He wakes up before I do in the morning. I think he goes back to sleep around 8am and wakes back up around 9:30 and stays up til about 12 noon. That's all I remember.